Outside the rain falls. It's been
falling pretty much since mid-April. This is unusual weather for
Colorado, especially the Front Range. It's been raining and that's a
good thing. People in Colorado become very moody if it's cloudy for
two consecutive days. That's right, it's sunny here nearly everyday.
But this spring has been wet. The rain has created two colors here:
gray and green. These are very different colors than the blue and
brown we're accustomed to seeing.
I've recently completed a large
project. I had it in my mind last December that I was just going to
write. I was just going to write in my 9.75” x 7.5” composition
notebooks for a while. It was just that I wanted to write some short
stories, maybe some poems, whatever, whatever I wanted to write at
the time. In short, I was going to do what it took to do just that,
me and the composition notebook.
I have young friend at work named
Miranda. I like Miranda. Miranda is full of energy, she excited, she
writes poetry. When we first met, several months ago, I had decided
to leave much of my 'writer's daily grind' behind and just be free of
it. I turned off my computer in December shortly after launching
Umbrella Factory Magazine's 20th and up until now
final issue. UFM decided to
take a break because everyone on staff was, is, or about to be, at
home rearing babies. We also decided to just put things on hold in
the event we wanted to go back to it.
Then,
I put everything on hold. I've spent no time on the social media
sites this year. I have not checked my email. I have not frittered
away hours drifted through the Internet. I put this blog on hold. And
I've not even turned on the computer for months.
How
fucking refreshing it is to turn off the digital world?
So, I
went home to my notebooks. After filling a few of them with whatever
I felt like, I made a mention to Miranda. I said, I'm just going to
write first drafts. She's a student. She's young. She said, well,
then you're not really writing. It was not a snarky reply by any
means and I would never take it as such. She's still operating on the
old platitudes that a writer writes and rewrites and rewrites. And
this is very true. Here though, when I decided to turn off the
computer and just write in my notebook, I have done more as a writer
than most. Aside from my two published novels, the third one
forthcoming, the film writer credits and the handful of short stories
published over the years, what do I care? I don't need to do anything
more than write in my notebook. I got nothing to prove. I have
accomplished more as a writer than I ever dreamed that I would. All I
have is a compulsion to write.
I have
to admit, it's been a fine time. I have written drafts of a couple
dozen stories that I think will make fine pieces when reworked. I
have read some wonderful books. I have rethought my purpose as a
writer. I've rethought my magazine and I've rethought my blog.
It's
not really the sort of advice one might expect. Take a break. Sit
under a tree and scribble on paper. Turn off the screens. Turn off
the Internet. Turn off the world for a while. And it's astounding
what you might find. Sometimes the best views and the best insights
happen within when a quietness settles.
For
any of you who have been looking at my blog, thank you for your
patience. And for those of you who have just wandered by, welcome.
Thanks
for reading.
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