Monday, April 18, 2022

On being on the job hunt, the preamble

COVID-19 has been very good to me. It might sound like a horrible thing to say, but I've really enjoyed these last couple of years. I don't think I'm alone in this sentiment either. When the lockdowns started a couple of years ago, I was dumbfounded at first. I mean, I'd been working restaurants for years and there was always an element of fear in losing a job. Restaurants close everyday for all sorts of reasons. I suppose I always knew that, and at the end of every shift I ever worked, I was prepared for that shift to be the last. Of course, being a restaurant person and knowing this, I was always assured that I could simply walk into another restaurant and get a job. Suddenly, all the restaurants were closed.

What was especially stunning about the lockdown was this: we had no idea when were going to be able to get back to work. Like most of my colleagues, I spent that first lockdown, ten weeks, doing what you'd expect from a restaurant person. I cooked and I drank. It was a wonderful time.

Saturday, February 26, 2022

A new beginning for my blog?

For years, I found this blog to be a place where I formed ideas, forged ideas and honed ideas. Of course, for years it was about writing, which was who I was then. To put it into perspective, I began this blog just over a year after leaving Goddard College with my MFA in creative writing. I began this blog shortly after leaving my briefest of stints as an adjunct instructor of writing. I began this blog, officially, less than one month after the first issue of Umbrella Factory Magazine. I was still in the process of becoming what I would ultimately become.

Thursday, February 17, 2022

The Detox is Over?

 Waiter Detox Day 7

It's been a week.

And I feel great.

What's really amazing is how much mental space has been freed up in a mere seven days. When I think of the nature of being a waiter, I don't really find it as stressful as many people do. Sure, waiting tables has it's own stresses, but whatever, at the end of the shift, the shift is over and it's time to be drunk or become drunk again. I was, however, taking the emotional impacts of interactions home with me over the last few years.

Tuesday, February 15, 2022

Dangerous of Nostalgia, part 2

Waiter Detox Day 5

There is no better day that today. There has never been an America greater than there is right now. There has never been smarter, more compassionate people than those who live today. The pop music has never been better, more interesting nor has there ever been more variety and better musicianship. Food tastes better. In fact, fuck anyone who thinks 'those were the days' because, let's face it, these are the days.

And if this is not the case, then there is nothing wrong with the world at large, there is only the problem with the individual, the person who looks back at some remote time and thinks that things were better then.

What about COVID? What about global warming? What about bipolorsian politics? What about the insidious and ubiquitous algorithms that are ruling and shaping our lives? Yes, those things are bad, but we've had to deal with all sorts of fucked up societal issues and problems ever since society began. I do, however, feel very bad about global warming and I will truly miss a peaceful planet, but that is another story for another time.