I spent a few hours with my dear friend
Caroline today. I say dear friend, and it is true, she is a dear
friend. Generally when I introduce her, I introduce her as my MFBF
(mother fuckin' best friend). I don't know exactly how she got this
title, but it sticks with her. So today, my MFBF came around for a
visit.
We caught up on new times. We talked
about work. We talked about family. We talked about the things that
adults always seem to talk about. Then our conversation turned to
her recent return to college. It seems she's taking a German
Language class and a writing class. A writing class? I never seem
to get tired of talking about those classes. Janice doesn't seem to
get tired of talking about those classes either. Fortunately, and
this is always good to hear, my MFBF is doing well in her writing
class and enjoying it too.
Then the discussion arises that maybe
she will become a writer. I think she should. Oh, I think she
should. She says it's a possibility, but just that—a possibility.
It seems that writing is still laborious for her. “How do you do
it?” she says. “I just do,” I tell her. And that's just it, I
just do. What's even funnier about it is that I had spoken to
another friend earlier in the day who asked me when I find time to
write. I don't know, I just find the time.
As our visit wound down, I put another
plug for her decision to become a writer. “It get's easier,” I
said. “The more you do, the better it will be,” I said. “It's
like anything. You just have to do it,” I said. “Then you can
look at my blog,” I said. “I've dropped by your blog,” she
said. Well, Caroline, if you're stopping by now, I just told the
world that you're my MFBF and that I think you should be a writer.
I've talked about what I think it means
to be a writer. I've talked about what means to be a worker. I've
talked about being a screenwriter, an editor, and a novelist. But
what does it really mean? What does the writer and work
-and- the writer and the work
mean?
The
writer and work is just that. I writer must work, a writer must
write. I've said this before. All your writer friends have said
this before. Your instructors have said this before. In the case of
my buddy Noah who asked when I find time to write, I have no straight
answer. I just find the time. Remember it doesn't take all that
long to write a page. Write one page a day, stay at it for 25 years
and you'll be astounded at what you get. When I say one page a day
for 25 years that comes to 9,131.25 pages. I'll venture to guess
that I have more than that many pages. I try to write everyday. As
of late, I finally have a family, by which I mean a newborn, and
writing hours are hard to find. But I find them. I think everyone
should.
A
different angle to it is the
work.
When I think of the work, it is just that, the body of work. When I
say 25 years of writing, at least for me, I am not far off. I have
precious few pieces of my writing that date to 1986. They are not
very good, but we all start somewhere. I started to keep a personal
diary in 1990. I got heavily into writing sometime in 1993. I could
go through dates and milestones which might be boring, so I keep it
brief: I have just about everything I've ever written within a
fingertip's distance. I will not be able to pour over all the pages
I've ever written, not in a sitting, not in a weekend, probably not
in a month. I could recall or pull up anything with a moment's
notice. I could bring up the pages upon pages of the weird shit I
wrote while living in Europe. I could pull up the pages I wrote
under Vance Aandahl's tutelage. I have the hot months of Tucson,
Arizona, and I have the long rainy nights of Portland, Oregon equally
close at hand. I have mountains of poetry (mostly bad), I have
highways of screenplays (mostly surrendered); I have hundreds of
shorts stories, and I have a dozen novels. What does this mean for
me? Well, I have work, I have worked and I have work to do.
As writers we have so many tools and we cannot forget to use them. We
have pens and paper; we have typewriters and file cabinets; we have
computers and disk space. We can collect words in every conceivable
order. We can maintain what we have written and we can work it all
over again. In the case of Caroline, she has an entire life of
writing to embark upon. I'm excited for that. For me, I may not
have all the time I once had, but I do have mountains to sift
through. I still have work to do even if it is not the generation of
new material. A writer must work.
So,
when does it become time to organize all of this work? I have no
real answer to that. The time comes, I suppose when it makes sense
to give the college essays and travel poetry a looksee. Who knows?
Perhaps when it comes to vast depths of a writer's work, well that
may be work for another person or another time.
My MFBF,
ReplyDeleteI feel I should sum up this post by letting you know that I made the decision to just do it. I write every day. This is the only requirement I've placed on myself. I write something every day. After only a few weeks, what was a chore has become a welcome compulsion and although I recognize most of what I'm writing will come to nothing, the act itself is satisfying.
I want to be a writer.
Before I had the guts to say it, you said it.
Thank you. I love you. Now, I have work to do.
-Caroline